A spur-of-the-moment photo
My past birthdays were celebrated with lots of surprises, close friends and foods. I worry about what something-old-new-borrowed I should wear and make-up I should put on. It wouldn’t be my birthday if there would be no loud music, endless singing, and crazy dancing. We’re always on the dance floor partying and blissfully drinking. But I never pass out. :P And more often than not, it ends up for days or a week like there’s no tomorrow.
But on my 24th year on earth… I didn’t care at all. I didn’t care even if I was just wearing ‘pambahay’ with matching ‘tsinelas’ (flip-flop). I didn’t worry about giving my best smiles on photos and I only got 1 on that day. My mom sent me ‘biko’ (It is a cake made from glutinous rice cooked in sweetened coconut milk and topped with latik/curdled coconut cream) and it’s the best ‘biko’ I’ve ever eaten. I watched ‘Ghost’ and ‘Titanic’ with my grandparents and it was the first time we watched a love story DVD together. I know what really matters to me that day are the people who didn’t forget my birthday. They greeted me over the phone, through text and Friendster comment box. There were even like 10 of them I didn’t expect to remember. I think I’m sounding shallow here but sometimes we have to be one to appreciate simple presents or occurrences in our lives. I appreciate simple than big and expensive yet heartless gifts/things. (Unless it's a car or a MacBook Air, lol.)
photo taken from the short trip
Anyway, these are some of the things I realized (in a bus) from the trip.
1. We die a little every day. So, we should learn to appreciate big or small things that happen to us. It may feel like we’re born again every day but I don’t see anything wrong about it. It’s like saying there’s always a new tomorrow and we should always be positive about everything.
2. Being a 24-year old isn’t really old. I’m not saying we should act like not our own age. In fact, I’m looking forward for an age defying make-over, lol. Next time, I want to be asked what I do instead of questions like if I’m married already or what course I am taking (that’s either old or young,huh?).
Just like what Edu Manzano said in his HavItAll commercial, "it’s not a matter of how old we are, but how young we feel." Although to be honest, I feel old at twenty-four than any other ages I’ve passed through, lol. I remember when I was 13, I told myself it’s a perfect age and I laugh when I hear my cousins saying the same. At 16, I said the exact same thing and I thought it’s the sweetest age. And when I reached 18, I supposed it was perfect coz it’s when you can legally drive, drink, kiss and have bf and job (And okay to get in jail too, lol). But the bottomline? Age doesn't really matter.
3. Face your fear. Ok, you might have heard that hundreds of times but never really practiced it. I surely have fears and can’t count how many times I’ve ran away from it. But I think what’s really important is when you try and never get afraid to get at risk. Aside from being afraid of injections, blood, etc., I have this fear of rejection caused by a bad childhood history and so I appear like I’m always pleasing people. When I realized that, I tend to convince myself I don’t care for people so when I lose them, I would feel like I didn’t really exert an effort and that it’s ok- i still win. And when they left me, it hurts more that I lied to myself than when I was rejected. So, we should just be honest about everything and we shouldn’t be afraid to try and give our best. We shouldn’t be afraid to make mistakes and fail. (and yes, it's just injection, I shouldn't be afraid. Bullsh*t!)
p.s. I would maybe talk a little about my trip and post pictures too. :P
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