Mothers Day repost

I wrote this entry last May 08, 2008

And I just feel like reposting it.

What would it be like having my own kids? I want children years from now but I need a husband first. ;-) Since it's Mother's Day, I won't talk about my ideal husband yet, lol. Let me step 3 times ahead and forecast myself as a future mom. I believe how every kids grow reflects how they were raised by their parents.

Now I start dreaming.
There would be one day that I would wake up with a pretty son in my arms. Remembering that last night, I squashed myself into pain while holding my husband's quivering and sweating hands. Bright lights facing me that made me barely see the doctor's face. I worry how he looked at my private area. :-P

My son's first cry would be like a song to my ears, it would last and would win awards more than the great bands/singers got. His eyes, his nose, his overall are resemblance of the fruit of love that his dad and I planted. As he grows up, my love for him would become more intense that I wish he wouldn't grow so fast. For one day he will leave, just like I did. But it's too soon to think about. Son, let's play outside, let's play for years. You would grow filled with love and support. A born artist. You would paint, like how I picture you at this very moment. You would freely write, like how letters are placing on this sheet. You would be as creative as how I mold you while you grow up.

There would be one day as a 3-year-old kid, you would get mad at me coz I wouldn't buy the toy you like. Then, I would let you understand, giving everything doesn't mean giving all that's visible to the eyes. You would kiss me and say sorry. "Mom, whatever.I never understood everything you said". The way you would cleverly talk would give me smiles I would treasure all my life. One day, you would understand. But as your mom, I wouldn't also understand the surprises that you would bring me. Anyhow, that makes a surprise a surprise.

There would be one day, I would get stunned that I'm the person whom you talked to about your crush at 5. That I know, I have built trust between us. We would tell your dad later, I must see the little girl first :D. Your blushing cheeks would be obvious while we wait for her. To my surprise, a 20 something would stand up before me; sexy, pretty, smart-looking. Wow, you got you dad's taste. Ahemm... ;-)

There would be one day, you would get jealous because someone would be kicking from inside me. Child, that's your sister... an angel. You would just smile. "Mom, I'm sorry. You said angels are in heaven, how did she gets inside you?". The way you wittily ask would remind us that once... we were children. The innocence in you would be as sweet as the chocolates spreading on your face.

And as said, I don't want you to grow up so fast yet. I must stop before I make you 40 in my imagination. Oh God, my back's aching thinking about my grandchildren. But remember, I promise that I would take good care of you until I send you to your own lives. I would make this family worth keeping. You would all grow better than I imagined you would become.

One day, you would read this laughing and all but the promise is kept.

Happy Mother's Day to all Moms! And to all my moms! :)

Meine Mutter 2007